11/15

by Kristina

I have so much
Yet only two hands 
It took me this long 
To finally understand 
I could wish the world
And try my best
To repair this all
To fix this mess
Yet this feeble beating
Pulsating heart
Is all I have to offer now
Together or apart 
I have love to give
Reserved for you only
But an impossibility 
Has deemed me forever lonely 
I could curse myself
I could stop believing
But now this aching
Simply feels like breathing 
I’m so used to these
Sad hands by now
Yet useless they remain 
Paralyzed somehow
I have so much to give
Yet nothing left
Because in exchange for this love
All that was kept
Were the things you made 
Me feel about myself
And you’ll get your wish now
I won’t share them with anyone else