I Shouldn’t Have

by Kristina

I shouldn’t have found you but I did
Somewhere amongst my own chaos and other things
I shouldn’t have pursued an impossible love
But my feelings gained control and I soon gave up
Gave up and gave in to the unattainable
The feelings I had were unexplainable 
Once I dove in I never resurfaced 
You gave me meaning, hope, and purpose
I shouldn’t have loved you so much and so hard 
But you gained full control of my heart 
I shouldn’t still love you the way that I do
And I pray that I won’t go crawling back to you